Alvin.

Alvin has not been able to sleep well for quite a long time already.
Yup , it's insomnia.
He started to have more thoughts in his mind and he keeps on reflecting on his actions.
He can't sleep and choosed to blog some of his thoughts.
This post will allow friends know some things about him, his true colours.

He is very thankful to Zhi Yong.
Zhi Yong made Alvin get closer to friends like Ai Hui, Ivy, Jun An, Kenneth, Kristal, Lee Mei, Siew Hoon , Vanessa & Wan Ting.
But at the same time this made Alvin realised that he is a very lousy friend or this made him realised he that he is not close to friends.
He always have been trying hard.

And he wants to apologise to friends especially to Zhi Yong & gang. His past stupid actions have causes drastic changes to the clique.

He's currently having a crush on someone.
The feelings are very strong , even stronger than the past one.
But the past stops him from stepping forward.
he knows he's going to regret it if he don't do anything , but he is afraid of commitment.
He's afraid of running out of ideas to spark up relationships.
Frankly speaking he finds himself a no life and a boring person.
He believed that his past relationship failed ,is due to his laziness and his dullness.
He hates himself for being such a person.
He failed to change.
He tried.
He is very sorry.

He enjoys cracking jokes to make people laugh but he is actually very quiet, sad.

When he is in a group, he tends to be noisy.
When you are alone with him, he is quiet.
He thinks this is a serious problem to him personally.
He have been trying hard to balance them out ever since he was a child , but only small improvements can be seen.

This post is about your friend , Alvin Tan.
He can't sleep and just want to say something our from his mind.

I love you , friends.