Christmas

Merry Christmas everyone! :D
To most of you, it should be a eventful day when you get to spend time with people you appreciate like family, boyfriend, girlfriend, friends etc etc.

Some of you might know that I spent my Christmas last year differently but to me Christmas is just a day with many nice Christmas movies to watch on channel 5 every year LOL.
Then nowadays also no friends to go out celebrate festivals anymore so oh well, stay at home nua.

BMT Achievement Unlocked

Woohooo! Got my IPPT silver this week!
Felt a great sense of achievement when my sergeant read out my platoon's results.

Completed 16km route march! The next one will be the POP 24km route march from Singapore Ferry Terminal to Marina Floating Platform.

I guess I'm doing great as a NS man lol.

Got shortlisted for Military Police interview too, hope I can make it into the unit. Their uniform is damn chioooooooo and the things that they do is not much different as compared to the Police Force.

New Favourite YouTube Singer

He do us Asians proud :)

Best Friend, an original song written by him :


Double win :
Chinese version!

True love never fades.

Michael Buble's voice really touches people's heart. Tears that I held on for so long appeared once again after hearing this song. What I once had was so real. Maybe it was too overwhelming for me to handle and I screwed it all up. 6 days 5 nights out in the forest and I think of her every night.

I know nothing will change but... I love you.

《料理情人梦》

今天刚刚在YouTube看完在九月份上档的偶像剧《料理情人梦》。这部偶像剧以美食为主，主要演员有吴克群、凤小岳、李佳颖和吴映洁。很少看到吴克群演戏吧？

我满喜欢这部偶像剧的，我大力推荐朋友们有空去看看。剧中的故事我就不告诉你们了，你们自己去看吧...哈哈。

Enjoy~

Call me a marksman

Many things in life doesn't go the way you want. I've experienced that countless times and yet this monster manage to pull me down every single time.

But at least I've achieved one of my short term goal, attaining marksmanship.

Call me a marksman.

Serving the NS made me have lesser time to search for good music, but good music can be easily found once when you open up your ears.
Enjoy :)




Colour 出了新歌， 小甜甜当MV女主角! 


 大嘴吧 funky 电音：

Life of a National Service Man is...

filled with pride, vigor and friendship.
But deep down inside you know something is missing.

Short term goals

1. IPPT Silver (now still fail cos of pull-up but the rest all silver)

I want to get either one of the badges below that is sewn onto the left sleeve :

2. Attain marksman (haven't learn rifle technical handling yet)

3. Get into SCS (haven't POP yet)

Do my best for BMT!

A long term goal

After so long,
I hope one day I will be able to remove the plasters.

I look forward to the day when I can find my life partner who goes through thick and thin with me, hand in hand.

I almost had it all.

A few more hours to becoming a soldier

Yeah a soldier that's gonna be trained to defend a country flooded with foreigners and a beardless KFC president :X

I love being a botak man now, I've never felt my head so naked before LOL.
My head feels light and super ventilated :D

All the best to me to the no-life life for 2 years.
It begins right after 8th Sept 2011, 0945 hours, at Pulau Tekong.

Oh I'll try to keep this place alive :)

P90X

The complete workout phase of the P90X is 3 months!
Argh guess I'm gonna start it only after I P.O.P-ed from my BMT.

Super tempted after I download the complete workout videos + worksheets + calender.
Tony Horton is my idol now.
He's 53 years old now and he look like only in his thirties! Omg.

Recharged. Changes Detected.

I knew it! Going on a holiday totally works for me :D
I feel better, stronger, faster now. (just some rip off lyrics from a song, I excluded the "harder" lol )

Gonna push myself further within the 2 weeks remaining before NS.
I don't want to faint during NS training.
P90X Cardio X Workout!

Anyways, enlisting into the army definitely will affect your relationships with family and friends.
I'm expecting some changes here and there.
Just mentally preparing myself here.

National Day

Exactly 1 year ago, National Day was meaningful.
I forged a bond with a family :)
Had picnic, played badminton with them and I even taught their 6 year old girl how to ride a bike, and unexpectedly, this improve the family's impression of me :)
I really had fun :)

But this year, what is National Day sia?
I'm back to square one.
I think I will feel even worse on Christmas.

Songs that I love now :)

还记得你们小时候的梦想或学生时的理想吗？当我们渐渐的成长，了解了​这个社会的现实后，那些梦想和理想不得不改变。最后不知不觉怀疑​起自己： “这真的是我想要的吗？” 让这首歌，唤醒你的童年回忆和梦想 :



蕭敬騰好会唱歌呀：





And my all time youtube R&B group , Ahmir, with their latest songs cover :

hahaha

Futile efforts again. Nvm got used to it. Abandoned once again. Monster. Goodbye.

以笑带过。哈哈哈。

I'm still the Alvin that you all once knew, just a bit depressed that's all :) I will find myself back again.

I remember, but you've forgotten them already. Oh well...there's nothing else I can say~~

Let me use this chance to share this song with you all :)

I want to move on.

But I don't even know how to start...

I think of her every time and every night before I sleep. We did so much things together, it's so hard to forget.

It's painful, living everyday like this. I wanted to do something but I know she won't give a damn about it anymore.
She didn't even give damn about the things that I've said to her in facebook. She don't give a damn about my life and in fact, made my life so miserable now.

I'm so stupid right, blindly in love. Sometimes I ask myself why am I still holding on? But I realize nobody in this world can replace her inside my heart.

I hate her but I love her.
I love her family too, but what's the point? It doesn't change anything.

It's amusing.

It's amusing to see people getting so well and growing up together as a couple while mine failed miserably. I laugh at myself lol.

Haha I think I will stay single forever until some miracle happen.
I don't want to try anymore, it's a scar that will never heal.

I love english music!

English party music makes me forget all the sad stuffs and makes me wanna dance with the music lol.
Unlike mandarin songs which is always bout love and heartbreak -.-

Songs that are always on repeat on my playlist are found below!!! :DDDDDD
ENJOY!

I miss the old you.

I miss the old you and the old times.
It goes all the way back even before we're got together.
You were so much better.

Now you're like a stranger.
Why do you have to change so much?
I'm still the same, just that once in a while I will miss you.

FUCK YEAH!!!

Pardon me for the vulgar title lol.
Put yourself in my shoes.
I finally passed my driving test after trying it for the 3rd time.
If you're learning to drive, get a friend/family WHO HAS ALREADY GOT HIS/HER DRIVING LICENSE TO INTRODUCE TO YOU HIS/HER DRIVING INSTRUCTOR.

Don't ever be like me, a stupid idiot.
I'm really immature and not streetwise enough.

After changing to to my brother's instructor, Uncle Tan, I found out that my previous instructor,PETER FONG, can totally go eat shit and bang wall. I would throw him down a building, carry him up again and throw him down again. Don't call me a sadist lol. He really deserves it. He is a total money sucker and failed as a teacher. Too bad I realized it too late. I regret not listening to my parents and my bro, I've learnt it the hard way and wasted over $1k on that piece of shit.

Being independent doesn't mean you have to really depend everything on yourself. I always have this wrong mindset of trying to do everything myself. Sometimes we need help from others. Accept their help, accept their comments/opinions. I need to work on that.

Uncle Tan, is the one of the best teacher I've ever came across. I aspire to be like him. He is patient, knowledgeable and enjoy teaching. I still remember this morning he was outside the room (where you wait to be called for your driving test) looking for me. After he saw me, he raise his hand up high with a thumbs up. That really boast my confidence 100 times :D He was confident that I would make it this time round.

If you ever need a driving instructor, find Uncle Tan.
DONT EVER FIND PETER FONG THAT PIECE OF SHIT.

I've been listening to song that tells me to be strong...

But I just can't do it.

I just simply love the songs :D

Sometimes I wonder if she ever looked back at the times we have spent, if she ever felt a small bit of regret over the decision at all, if she ever missed me.

Ok enough bout sad stuffs...
Everyday I'm shuffling!

2 is better 1

Everytime I post a song, it meant something to me.

USA vs Russia LOL

Mwahahahaha! This photo is damn hilarious! :D

SUTD

The course you accept
SUTD - Singapore University of Technology and Design
has been registered by the Joint Acceptance system on 29 May 2011, 09:21:44 PM
Thank you.

I hope I made the right choice...

Argh Headache

Singapore University of Technology and Design(SUTD) or Nanyang Technical University(NTU)!?

SUTD - Expensive school fees(11K per year), Collaborated with the best engineering uni in the world, MIT and best uni in China, ZheJiang University. Professors underwent training at MIT, their curriculum blueprint is adapted directly from MIT. It's new and their certs will only be accredited by 2014.

The new campus will be damn near my house.
Most of the people there will be GUYS and mostly nerds LOL. Cos they only accept good students interested in engineering field. How to find wife like that? :D

I'm offered a scholarship to ZheJiang University for a 18 weeks exchange programme during my year 2 of study at SUTD.


NTU - Relatively cheaper school fees(7K per year), best engineering university in S'pore so far.
Many students from there are able to get a job as soon as they graduated. Certs are fully recognized by companies. Bachelor related to Engineering from NTU are recognized as Masters in other countries.

The campus is damn far away from my house. The campus will be filled with girls cos it has business school there! No lah. What I meant is it will be also like TP, a vibrant campus filled with activities :D

Forgot to apply NTU scholarship...But I heard it's freaking difficult to get. My course gold medalist (GPA 4.0) got the scholarship.


I'm left with 3 more days to think, LOL.

Day 3 at work!

Yeah man sitting at my working area and typing this post :D
Feels good to be working, rather than sitting at home slacking and cracking my brains to think "what can I do today?".

It's day 3 at work and I'm happy to be able to do something I'm familiar with :)
Looking forward to Fri night prawning session! I never prawn before.
I love typing in broken english, more funny and relaxing this way don't you think?

Hope you are happier than before..

"不能在一起也没关系
至少你懂我的心 会在想你
那些回忆会永远保持甜蜜

不管未来你会在哪里
我都不会忘记 我爱你
你是我微笑的原因

只是希望你能比从前开心 "

Funny pictures :D

It's ok lah.

Everything's gonna be alright once I start working.
It will make me forget the unhappy memories I think.

I started poly as a happy kid.
Ended poly as an unhappy adult.

I hope I can enter army as a happy botak man :D
I'm struggling to be happy nowadays.

Time will heal :)
It only has been 4 months, going 5.
Dont rush.



I cried while watching this.

I HATE TO LEARN DRIVING!

I hope all these shit will end soon!!!
Zzz. I'm super unlucky.
I have terrible learning-how-to-drive experience.

ENLISTMENT DATE 8th Sept 2011

Received my enlistment letter!!! OMG. OMG. OMG.
Excited lah plssssssssssssssssssssss.
BOTAK HEAD FTW LOL.

More regrets.

Many many regrets yet it feels like I cannot do anything bout them :(

Or I should say I'm scared of feeling disappointed if the results of my hard work is not I wanted.
Many things in this world can't be attained by hard work.
Maybe it's not the time yet?
But I scared it'll be too late by the time I take action...

The words that I wrote on the book that I gave someone as a birthday gift will always be true :)

Some regrets.

Regret I didn't get to perform at TP. LOL.
There was once I almost got a chance to sing on stage...but that time too sudden then I shy lah *tao yan~* So I gave up the chance haha :D

Poly for me consider quite vibrant, but not enough leh.
But I still envy the vibrant campus life at Taiwan that's always shown on TV.
It's something you cannot find in Singapore.

People say Taiwan have nice food, nice view etc.
I say Taiwan has the most vibrant school life :)

Hope I get to experience something similar or the real thing itself(study trip) when I get to uni :)

I cannot drive?

Zzz this time round I drive so smoothly, no accidents, everything swee swee.
When I get the result slip, I see wow freaking 42 demerits points!
I 1st attempt got 12 points only hor but kena accident that's why immediate failure.
I don't know how the hell I get 42 points.
I need a break.
I need a kit kat.
I need to change instructor.

现在感觉超紧张...

I WANNA PASS TMRW!!!

Saturday got SUTD admissions interview also!!!
I also nervous bout this one.

@.@

Tee Gong Bo Bi Me on Thursday

TEE GONG BO BI MAI LOR HOR, BHEI CHIA LOR SOON SOON.

Thursday is my TP(driving practical test) 2nd attempt!
It would be very different this time, mood will much better with sufficient sleep!
Unlike my 1st attempt lol.

Huat arh! lol.

I can't wait to be botak LOL

Yeah my title says it allllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll
The weather is KILLING me.

But I think I will endure until the day I really can't keep the hair length I want anymore, I want to keep my image first. Yes my head is shy LOL.

I think I will look damn cheeky/funny/idiotic with a botak head.
Only these people can look handsome, stylish with botak head.

Beckham!

Bruce Willis
Oops this one is bald then shaved botak one =X

OK PEOPLE TIME FOR IMAGINATION! Let your brain do the work for you! Let your imagination run wild~~~

Imagine I botak using this picture :

Quite an old picture. But the most idiotic face ever.
Yeah that's Kristal at the back.

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..
...
....
.....
......

Is this what you have imagined?
LOL

1st Acceptance NUS!

I have been offered Computing(Computer Science) at NUS!!!
Omg university application is really different becos you get another chance to choose when you are accepted in various courses in different universities.

So now I'm waiting for replies from NTU and SUTD becos I want to get in either of the 2 universities instead of NUS lol I very basket, I treat NUS as my last resort =X
NUS is better known for business course although they made improvements to their engineering courses these recent years.

NTU main focus is still on technical courses so I guess they will spend more money and effort on the technical courses + wan ting and siew hoon are studying there, and that is why I want to go in NTU.

SUTD, a new university that is opening on 2012 near Singapore Expo is an excellent choice for me!
1st : It is NEAR, FREAKING NEAR MY HOUSE as compared to other uni.
2nd : It is collaborated with MIT(Massachusetts Institute of Technology), the number 1 technical university of the world. The professors that SUTD are hiring will be directly from MIT, meaning 99% of them are Caucasians? Most importantly, during your last year of study at SUTD, you get a chance to study at MIT for a year! How cool is that? Studying at the states.

Time to move on

It's amazing how the truths can change my mood and opinion totally.

I decided to move on since I understand everything now :)

Keep all the feelings to myself.

Why having good results are impt.

Now I finally got something good out from my good results :)
A staff from TP called me today!
They are offering a job for me TP becos my results are good.
$85/day!

My job scope:
1. Assist lecturers during lab sessions.
2. Peer tuition with weaker students.
3. Assist lecturers with projects.

COOL
Monday I'm going over to submit my resume :)

SO MANY JOB OPPORTUNITIES NOW!
I applied for Robotics Trainer, MOE Allied Educator, Primary School Relief Teacher and now this! ALL GOT APPROVED.
Most likely I'm getting this job!

I am so healthy and active this week LOL

Gym session on Tues
Driving session on Wed
Badminton session on Thurs
Driving session + Sentosa on Fri

My whole body is aching!
Weekend I plan to organise K Session!
Hehehe :D

What now?

Don't know leh.
Haiz. Life. Playing. A. Fool. With. Me.

It's been 3 months. I'm still the same. Haha. Unable to move on with life. Stuck. Miserable. Pathetic. Pitiful. Useless. Worthless. Dejected. Downcast. Hurt. Injured. Crying.

突然好想把我的想法，情绪统统写出来。

我好失败呀!!!

为什么你当初要说"OK"呢!? 一时冲动? 觉得寂寞? 你以为我在和你玩的是吗? 你那时说要休息的时候其实早已不想继续这段感情对吗? 拖拖拉拉的，你怕会伤害到我。但我宁愿你直接一点，对我坦白一点。你有一次还说 “我们重头开始好吗? 以朋友的关系重新认识对方。” 这句话伤我最深。
为什么把我抬得那么高，然后又狠狠的把我推进地狱里。
即使我们已不是男女朋友，我没有办法再次把你当成朋友看待。
我就是过不了自己这一关。我很想恨你，但我办不到。
只是对你很失望。我们经历了这么多挫折，看了多少情侣分手而更加珍惜彼此，偏偏在这个时候你选择了放弃，选择了逃避。我们都没有做错什么而分手，好可惜呀!!!

想要得到你的关心，聆听我诉苦的专心，知道我胃不好而照顾我的细心，甚至你的心，已变成一种奢求。

你知道你是我的精神支柱吗? 你让我重新认识这个世界。你改变我对这个世界的看法。You made me who I am today.
没有你，日子好难过。
算了...你已不再对我有任何的感情，说这么多浪费口水...
哦对hor, 这里是Internet leh, balek.
写这么多浪费 Memory space... hahaha
只是突然很想你，还有我之前的"未来家人"。

夜已深，就此停笔。Orz 还以为是在写应用文。
看来只有在这午夜时分静静的想你。

Alvin, 新一代宰男

LOL yep. Been staying at home for 9 days straight. Cool right.
I am so lazyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

During that time I still got competition, school all that to make me numb.
I guess this season is my 疗伤 period.

But I resumed my driving lessons :)

Part-time work will have to postpone.

I'm not really into KPop but...

This song caught my ears' attention.
Quite pleasant to the ears I would say LOL.
By SE7EN. Enjoy :)



OH and today TP exams results were released!
Hohoho I did very well.
I've work hard these 3 years :)
I have to work doubly hard since I don't have much of the brains.
I really deserve the grades :)

It has been my poly ultimate goal since year 1 :D
DIPLOMA WITH MERIT OH YEAH HERE I COME! :D :D :D
GRADUATION LO!!!
3 years in TP has been fruitful :)

1st year I got to experience a vibrant campus life and independent learning environment
2nd year I got to experience puppy love, being involved in camps as main and sub-committee member and volunteering works [ohhhh I miss Aaron and Rui En :( ]
3rd year I got to experience competition stress, true love, the feeling of being dumped and lastly multiple failures that all come at once. lol it was hell.

I'LL MISS TP.

羅志祥 - 怕安靜

Happy Birthday Fiona

Today it's Fiona's birthday :)
I came across it on facebook yesterday.
Well I may remember it wrongly because I have kept away a calender that someone gave me few months ago to prevent myself from remembering the bad memories.

Anyways, it's her five year old birthday :)
Wow time flies. When I got to know her, she was only four.
She's the cutest girl that I've ever known so far.
She's very naughty, playful and yet she knows how to make people smile.
For once I really treated her like my own sister.
But due to some things that happened between us adults, I can't celebrate her birthday with her.
And now I can't even see her.
I was looking forward to this day.
Come to think of it, I even got her birthday present prepared since last year. Think I gonna donate to do some charity.
Kinda miss her and her family.
Oh well.

Sorry Fiona, Alvin kor kor can't celebrate your birthday with you. You are a bright child, you will grow up to be a kind and pretty girl with a bright future ahead :)

Finger Art

I can't wait to see this finger after this tanning session.
I hope it's not the middle finger :D

Haaa~~ Milk Bath for finger. I wonder what are the rest of the fingers doing.

Eeeew.

Bang! I like this picture the most :D

南拳妈妈的张杰唱出我每当夜已深的心情。

Creative Inventions!

Finger Guards for cutting!

A pillow with a hole below for arm. I need this! I always sleep in this position lol.

Make things easier when you wanna come out of the car right?

Bendable bicycle! No need locks next time!

Pizza cutter omg, this really makes life easier.

Holiest facebook status LOL

I received 32 response from my friends!
My maths got A ok lol 1 of them was my brother thats why 32 lah.
So total 33! You friends are the best.
Cool shiat!

Woah chill alvin chill.

Lol, I keep kena affected when I go facebook and sees somebody's posts.
But how to not get affected?
:|
People enjoying life while I still got exam -.-
It's not fair leh, you make my life so miserable and you are enjoying like &^%$#@!@#$%^&*
It's so unfair, really unfair.
But I'm not gonna fall into the trap! You suddenly so active on facebook, you think I dont know what you trying to do?

Aiyo.
I think I need to leave Singapore and forget about Singapore for a few days...
Sounds like a good idea :)
Travelling before enlistment!
Gonna work at TP after exams I think...heard it's $85/per day!
Cool shiat.

Holding back.

我的人生就是一错再错，错完了再从头。

It's a pity that I've lost a lot of things within 2 months.
It's not only someone I loved, but there's more than you can imagine.
But that's life. We can't really control some things in life.

It's unexpected how someone can change and become so heartless within such a short time.

For 1 year plus I'm like wasting my time? I seriously put in so much effort wor, to get close to the family, to juggle between my own family, relationship, friends, competition and studies.

I'm a Scorpio. When somebody do something bad to me, I won't show mercy.
But actually I'm holding back a lot of sarcastic comments about the things you have done and said to me before.

:)

Nevertheless...I still love you, Vann.

Another youtube singer :)
This time round he's a asian!



Youtubers write songs that are so related to real life.



Youtuber Singers keep me company every night with songs that really reflect my complex feelings :)

Another talented Youtube singer, Alex Goot :)

Grenade:



Songs written by him:
Breathless:



Pretty Eyes:
(Music Video directed by Kurt Schneider,a great youtube producer that works with Sam Tsui)
The actress is Julie Shain, she really has a pair of beautiful eyes :)

I cried everynight.

Wow i have been crying every night for how many days? I lost count.

I hate facebook.

Everytime I see your status updates I get affected a lot.
I see that you are living so well off without me, like nothing ever happened between us.

I today got too affected until I forgot to bring a lot of stuffs.
Submit 2 project and forget a section for each submission...

Haiz. I really can't get over it

UNFAIR

GAH I HATE BEING TREATED UNFAIRLY IN MY LIFE.
YOU ALL KNOW WHO YOU ARE.

Why do I always kena such treatments.

如果你听见我这首歌

“猜不透是哪里出了错
或许只是该结束的时候
想起你那句还是朋友
为什么我竟如此痛在心头
如果你在寂寞的时刻
却听见我这首歌
你眼眶是否会发热
如果你在快乐的时刻
却听见我这首歌
你心里是否会有一点舍不得”

What is love?

That girl taught me how to love but did not teach me how to forget.

The most important thing she ever gave me
was the one that hurt the most.

Life is unfair.
It's not because I didn't try, it's not because I didn't do enough.
What do I get in the end? What did I do to deserve this?
I must have offended some god in this life or my previous life lol.

It makes me ask myself this question again.
"What is love?"

I really really thought I found my answer.
I was living in an illusion for over a year.
Wow.

The 3rd thing I screwed up on 2011

In 2011, my life is obviously and seriously not going well, why whatever things I do nowadays always end up a disappointment.

My relationship screwed up.
My competition screwed up.
My driving test screwed up.
So what's next? Cannot graduate? Year 4.1? What the FUCK is going on with 2011!!!! My new year resolutions all failed within the first 2 months of 2011. Cool. I even wonder if I will be alive to see dec 2011.

I lost count of the days.

I stopped counting the days.
I don't want to care anymore.

I don't give a damn.

Day 8

Even though it's the number 8th day...

Sad songs are getting more and more meaningful.

Day 5, 6 and 7

Woooooooooooooooooooooo!
Competition is finally finally finally over! I have been waiting for this day since 29427389472374723 years agoooooooooooooooooooooooooo.
I feel so much lighter now :)
Gonna take a good break tmrw and I'm back to study/school mode for a month plus and I'm off to poly graduation!

But guess what.
I screwed up on my competition lol.
Day 1 was great! I completed a task which other teams could not and I scored 100/100 for that task!. But after that, all the remaining 4 tasks were like shit. Really like shit lol. What I can say is that being lucky or not is very a important factor that determines your chance of winning.
It's the 2nd thing I screwed up on year 2011 :)
I only can laugh at it haha.

Now I'm left with napfa on 28th Jan and driving test on 2nd Feb.
God bless me, where ever you are :)
Although I don't actually believe you exist haha.
But I need you to help me, to enlighten me, to give me answers.

Day 4

I tried not to think about what happened on 15th Jan. But I just can't stop thinking bout it.

Tmrw is the day I've been waiting for ages! I hope what happened won't affect me, but I know it will.
It seriously sucks to have such things happening to you when you have more than enough things to handle.

Last time I don't appreciate the meaning of FML.
But today I finally get the gist it.
Well...FML :)

I appreciate those who remember my competition date and who wished me good luck :)
Looks like I won't have the encouragement from someone, maybe the person forget or dont even care bah hmmm :(
I won't disappoint you all and myself :)

Day 3

Life is like hell. Nobody cares what I'm feeling, they only see what i'm doing and what happened.

Is there anyone out there who still cares about me?

Day 2

Tiring day!
Woke up at 6.30am today cos I've to be at sch by 8.15am, cos needa load all the tools and robots on teacher's car and need to reach ITE Choa Chu Kang by 9am for familiarisation. Counting down to finals on thurs :) I'm happy although my team and I are not ready yet lol.
Traffic is bad bad bad today! Every expressway are jammed from 7.30am - 9.30am! I wonder how many Singaporeans drivers were late today lol.

Well I've been trying to occupy myself with stuffs today, but whenever I'm alone I can't stop thinking of you...

Day 1

I thought it was nothing, really. But I was wrong, I cried on the way home today.

Just when we are getting more free...
Just when my competition is coming to an end...
Just when you are coming back to TP for a month...this happens.

I'm not gonna give up!
It's time to woo you back :)

Hahahaahahaha

I need to laugh. It's too sad.
I found out what I've screwed up on year 2011.

SO WHAT if I've worked hard.
I'm back to square one.

SIAN

Bought 2 items online but end up 1 size too small and another different from the picture!
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Sigh.

I cannot do anything right during stressful periods.
1. Mistaken my NS checkup date to be 3th Jan when it's supposed to be 10th Jan
2. Stupidly applied LOA(leave) from 8am to 2pm when my lesson starts at 2pm =.= (should have applied from 2pm to 3pm)
3. Mistaken driving lesson time end up reach the place 1 hour earlier.
4. Walk also can walk unti bang the fence outside Tampines 1.
5. Thought lesson starts at 10am but actually is 9am.
6. Bought clothes online, 1 size too small(the web says 45cm I measure 40cm only!!! 1 different from actual pic!!!)


What am I gonna screw up this time?

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(:

I actually can't get 1st January 2011 out of my head.
It was sweet (:

When you love someone, expect nothing in return. You choose to have them not they choose to have you.

I don't know if I'm such a person. But what I know is I care for those I love.
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Meaningful stuffs I found on Jian Hui's blog :

My eyes see the FACT which I assume it is TRUE.
But my eyes only see the FACT and not the TRUTH.

I see the REASON behind each ACTION.
But not the ACTION behind each REASON.

My ears listen to THINGS which I believe it is the ANSWER.
But my ears don't hear the FACT produce by every STORY.

I hear the EXPLANATION behind each PROBLEM.
But not the PROBLEM resulting in an EXPLANATION.

My brain had an ANSWER which I think it is REAL.
But my brains believe the FACT which is not the ANSWER.

I think of ANSWER which is not the TRUTH.
But not the TRUTH behind each ANSWER.

My heart feel WORRY because I am CONFUSE.
But my heart still WORRY despite my TRUST.

I feel the FEAR behind every TRUTH.
But not the TRUTH creating the FEAR.

I think I don't have time to care

MP/SIP Distinction Moderation in 1 week time.
Competition finals and NAPFA in 2 weeks time.
Driving Practical test in 3 weeks time.
NIE application during Feb.

When can I really be free.

Do I really have the time to care about the "minor" stuffs?
No matter how busy I am...I repeat no matter how busy I am I will always take some time out to show appreciation to my family, friends and her.
But the things I get in return are demoralising me.

So what.

Yeah so what.
You can't control everything in this world, Alvin.
I wonder what's the point of working so hard, when every time I get is disappointment.

Sigh.
I guess this year's new year resolutions will be hard fulfil.